That was a line from "A Moment To Remember" It is a good sad movie that made me cry like a crack baby.

Well today there was an eraser in my head, I erased most of my old LJ entries. 04-05 are gone. No need to remember that bullshit. I was a stupid kid that needed to be hit in the face, I was selfish, mean, arrogant, all in all an ass hole.

Therefore there was no need for them. I made entry #1 from when I met Michael, that seems like a good day to start fresh.


Also I am probally going to erase this LJ and make a new one.(with these entries)

Ponyclub_nate seems so 2004. March 04 to be exact... I know, because it was the first one erased!

Well it turns out that when we lost power I also lost one of my hard drives.... Bad part is that it was my hard drive with all ALL my old movies on it! I tried to load it today and it said it was corrupted. This is really depressing, I feel like shit now. The good, BIG versions of everything I worked on is now gone. And I don't have a Tape deck so I never backed any of that shit up!

I have reformatted the drive, and it works now, but still I have lost it all.

Yet, oddly enough, I don't feel too bad about it. What am I going to do with it? I mean really? They (the videos) were nice to have to show my progress, but they weren't ever going to be used again (I mean really, Wednesday and Wonder Bread?). I guess it is funny that it happens at the end of the year.


I still have Web quality of my videos, and a good version of "Know now." but I guess it's time to start over.

NEW MOVIE SOON
I will be needing extras after a while, I want this to be better than "Know now."
This weekend I will be meeting with Patsy about the new movie and will have a rough layout of what it will be.

I'll leave you with this...
Voices that echo in your head, what is real and what isn't? Thats for you to decide.

Current Mood: blah

We got the results today, and we didn't make the cut to go to Korea.
However, I don't that it's a bad thing. From my personal gain lone the outcome of this decision is good.
I made my best short film to date.
I learned some new programs that will only make my new films better.
I learned better techniques at filming and lighting in general.
I will be getting a better computer for free (i know things.)
I learned better ways to edit.
I am now better at scriptwriting and directing.

Not only myself benefitted I know Oswald and Patsy both learned a lot but I can't speak for them.

I am anticipating my next projects, they should really reflect what we've learned.
Patsy and I should be meeting up about the Bigfoot project, Monthly Friend Project, and the Choose Your Own Adventure DVD. So there is a lot on our plates.

Current Mood: accomplished

Last night at about 5a.m. I put the finishing touches on 'Know now.' Let me just say it looks freaking wonderful!

I won't post it up online yet, I don't want to lose a chance to go to Korea because I posted it when I shouldnt have.
However I am checking into it and can't wait to show it off.

I am so proud of this movie, it is easially my best work. I can't wait to top this with a better project.

Current Ideas:
Choose your own adventure DVD
Final Cut vs. Avid Commercials
Life in Color

25 days.

I have 25 days to be done.
I have 25 days to make my vision clear.


CHANGE.
In May of 2006 I entered the Imagine Cup, a contest I failed to meet the deadline.  When that happened I was crushed, I knew it wasn't my fault.  My group I was in had their true colors shine through and clearly the inadequacies they had as dependable people.  We didn't get the project done in time for the contest but by pulling 2 over-nighters I finished it for the class.



Know now.
Fast forward to October 2006. The Imagine Cup website was updated and I started working on the story for the video.  I wanted to do it again, this time by my self so I wouldn't have to depend on others.  This way if I failed again it would be because of my actions, because of my ineptitude.  I continued to come up with Ideas and throw them away.  I would wake up at night and scramble to write down my dream.  That's how it came to me.  In my sleep I envisioned the entire opening sequence.  From there it was all just a matter of coming up with the rest of the story. I however as many people do fell behind on the project and had to focus on schoolwork.  In late January the project came back to me in a bit of a wave of euphoria.  I knew I had to get cracking on it but this time I couldn't go it alone.  I started to get with Kaity on the weekends to discuss the project and enlist her as help with the story and acting.  We came up with the ending one night and when we were done writing I felt so accomplished.  Never before has something I have created given me chills.  We knew we had something on our hands, something big.  We also knew that we couldn't go it alone, I with no musical expertise, and patsy with limited guitar had to enlist some extra help.  Jason, the musical master that he is was fit for the job and glad to help us out.  With the team assembled set everything into action.  We started filming over spring break and got most of the movie finished before we even qualified.  In a bit of a rush and the fact that we were a small operation we hurried the storyboards along.  The storyboards are what carry us to round 2.  Needless to say they were not up to the caliber of what we can do, but were running out of time.  They were submitted and we in fact passed to round 2.

Out of 160 teams only 30 go on.  That says something.

Now we are 25 days away from it being due.  This week will be tough, I will be so anxious waiting for Sunday, our final shoot.  I still don't know 100% if we can do this.  Now I am depending on 1 person, and I hope he doesn't let me down.  From here Jason and I will be working overtime to get the video on my and the music on his end done and complete.

Within 25 days the video that I have poured all I have into will be finished.
Within 25 days the single hardest project I have ever attempted will be complete.
Within 25 days I will be accomplished.

That's my story.  So you all 'Know now.'

1. Patsy, Oswald and I are in one of the 30 groups that pass to round 2 in the Imagine Cup! We beat some finalists that went last year, so needless to say we're excited! I really think we could go all the way with this one!

2. Today (the 4th) is Michael and my's 6 month annavarsary! We're so cute! It dosen't even seem like 1/2 a year, it seems like more, but at the same time it went by so fast!

Current Mood: loved

Not too much news here for Nate.
I'll give a breakdown of what happened.

Friday.
Michael was in town so I hung out with him and met some of his friends, the we had dinner with Kim and Tim at Shenanigans. Word of the wise, don't steal those little coaster things that tell you your table is ready... they sing an annoying song when they get out of range and it can irritate you and your boyfriend. After dinner we headed to his parents house, I met his sister and her boyfriend Cam. Afterwords he came back to my Aunt's and I'll end there ;).

Saturday.
Michael left around 12 and I got ready to head to Owosso. I got back in town around 6ish, dropped things off at home and went to Pat's. I saw the end of a movie as he was taking a shower. We headed to Meijer to get alchol :) and a I got a new bed for me and Michael, because a twin size air matress SUCKS for gargantuanly tall people. I got a queen(insert joke here and I will crush your spine.). Michael called, he was at Pats waiting for us, Pat told him where the key is and said we'd be there in 10 mins, we gotta get. We got pizza at Caesars and orange cheese (NONE OF THEM HAVE HAD IT BEFORE!) pizza was s-l-o-w, we arrived 30 mins after we said we'd be there. When we got there Michael had drank 1/2 a bottle of Sake (I'm not a fan of it.), and Dan arrived. We ate, and played some weird game from the 90's, and later broke in the new bed. :D

next post, What happened sunday

So right now I'm sitting in an oven roasting, but I still like the class. My teacher is easily my favorite in the world! Jeff is the coolest. He asked me if I was going to go to Korea next year [for the imagine cup]n and I told him I was definitely going to go. It was funny, he asked who was in my group for it, and I said that i'm flying solo because I don't trust other people to fuck up my idea. Too many cooks spoil the broth. I finished my DVD for the class in 30 mins and then farted around on the internet, finally deciding to update this bitch. TADA!

Speaking of Korea, my Idea is really panning out, I am proud of it. I want to finish story boards and see who wants to act for it. If I advance you get to go to Korea, and will win some $$(if I win $$) I'm not having fuck ups like last year's competition. I want to be filming by January 1. (I could not start till like March and still have plenty of time to finish it.) By giving me this much time to work on it I'll not be rushed, I can polish it till it's all shiny and nice (I love editing.).

And now the weekend.

I'll be home this weekend, friday by 7pm. I have no current plans for then, so if you wish to do shit, call me or what ev.

Sat I am going to Pat and Dan's for a Fag's and Hag's party (like every party they throw) I can't wait because I get to see MICHAEL!! <3<3<3
it feels like forever since I've seen him, and that's not cool.

ok I'm roasting more than ever, so I will talk to you cats later.

Current Mood: bouncy